Dear Peng,
How are you, Peng?
Today, I left New Jersey and headed south towards Massachusetts. My mother's cousin pick me up from New Jersey and drove towards Boston, where his sister's house is located. There is a family gathering there.
It was an interesting road trip. Usually, my family will drive from JB to KL, so all I get too see is palm trees. This road trip, however, I get to see ports, rivers, bridges, houses and the very beautiful blue sky. Wished you could see it too.
Anyway, I reached the house at about 2.30pm. At lunch there and met the family. I felt quite lost and scared, to be honest. Half the time, I don't know what is going on.
Oh ya, there is a baby here too. The baby's name is Jayce. "Weird name", I thought. Haha. Everybody is crazy over him. Yeah, you know..babies are cute. I am sure you will go crazy over him too...but then again, I don't really know how you and babies go together, Peng. I never really ask you how you felt towards babies.
The house here has 2 humongous plasma televisions on the same floor. I am not sure about the upstairs bedrooms. There is even a Christmas tree here.
Personally, I am only here 'cause my mother ask me to meet her Aunty.
So here I am. Feeling lost (as always) and cold and lonely (as usual).
Didn't do much today. I had pizza for dinner and watch American Football for a while. Hated it. I could find the point of watching American Football. So pointless.
Then I slept. Wonder when I can go to Boston City. Need to buy some key-chains. Hmm...
So, Peng, what have you been up to lately? Hope you are fine and warm and cute as always. Take care, Peng. ^_^
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
New Jersey (Pt. 3)
Dear Peng,
Today I woke up at 10.30am. I had some tea. Later I went outside of the house to shovel the snow. The snow storm had made a 2 feet layer of snow. So, I had to shovel the snow away from the driveway for the cars to get out from the garage. It was hard work but it was good exercise for me. It was my first time really playing with snow too.
The shoveling keep on going 'till lunch where I took a break. About 40 minutes later, I went to shovel the last bit of snow. At about 3pm, the driveway was clear. I also shoveled snow near the mailbox so that the postman can deliver mail. I went inside to dry myself. My stockings and gloves were very wet.
Oh ya, I also did a "run-and-jump" in the snow. But, I sank in too deep and my camera got super wet. Lucky, its still working. Whew~ .... My jeans got wet too. Baby, can you dry me, pleaaaseeee~ Haha...BABY~~!
So, today was basically about shoveling snow. Have you shoveled any snow, Peng?
I love you, Peng~ *kiss* ^_^
Today I woke up at 10.30am. I had some tea. Later I went outside of the house to shovel the snow. The snow storm had made a 2 feet layer of snow. So, I had to shovel the snow away from the driveway for the cars to get out from the garage. It was hard work but it was good exercise for me. It was my first time really playing with snow too.
The shoveling keep on going 'till lunch where I took a break. About 40 minutes later, I went to shovel the last bit of snow. At about 3pm, the driveway was clear. I also shoveled snow near the mailbox so that the postman can deliver mail. I went inside to dry myself. My stockings and gloves were very wet.
Oh ya, I also did a "run-and-jump" in the snow. But, I sank in too deep and my camera got super wet. Lucky, its still working. Whew~ .... My jeans got wet too. Baby, can you dry me, pleaaaseeee~ Haha...BABY~~!
So, today was basically about shoveling snow. Have you shoveled any snow, Peng?
I love you, Peng~ *kiss* ^_^
New Jersey (Pt. 2)
Dear Peng,
Today, I am still in New Jersey. I woke up at 10 am. At 11 am, I went to Hoboken, New Jersey. I wanted to see Steven Institute of Technology. I have to say that Stevens looks nice. But its was so cloudy and visibility was horrible 'till I could see anything beyond 100 meters. Apart from that, though, Stevens IS a nice place to study in. Its in a semi-suburban area. And New York City is just beyond the Hudson River. I don't know about the academics but in terms of atmosphere, I think Stevens is good.
At about 2pm I made my way back.
Oh ya, PENG!!!! It snowed today. I saw snow for the first time in my life. I made a snowball too. But I wouldn't call it a ball though....haha...I'm still practicing....^_^
So, everywhere I went, snow was there too. Wow...
Wished we could have snowball fight together, you and I, Peng....
Anyway, that was basically my day.
Hope you safe and warm, Peng! *hug* *hug* ..... hehe
Today, I am still in New Jersey. I woke up at 10 am. At 11 am, I went to Hoboken, New Jersey. I wanted to see Steven Institute of Technology. I have to say that Stevens looks nice. But its was so cloudy and visibility was horrible 'till I could see anything beyond 100 meters. Apart from that, though, Stevens IS a nice place to study in. Its in a semi-suburban area. And New York City is just beyond the Hudson River. I don't know about the academics but in terms of atmosphere, I think Stevens is good.
At about 2pm I made my way back.
Oh ya, PENG!!!! It snowed today. I saw snow for the first time in my life. I made a snowball too. But I wouldn't call it a ball though....haha...I'm still practicing....^_^
So, everywhere I went, snow was there too. Wow...
Wished we could have snowball fight together, you and I, Peng....
Anyway, that was basically my day.
Hope you safe and warm, Peng! *hug* *hug* ..... hehe
Sunday, December 26, 2010
New Jersey (Pt. 1)
Dear Peng,
Today, I left New York for New Jersey. Yeah, I am going further away from you. I feel kinda sad.
It is Christmas and I remembered that you said to me that for your present, you wanted me and only me. I also wanted you. In fact, I still want you. Sadly, I'm not getting the gift I truly desire. Haha.. tough luck, I supposed.
Anyway, Peng, how have you been? Are you fine? Hope are you warm and all. I don't know what else to say.
I want to say "I love you, Peng" but I don't know...today, my heart feels so heavy and painful....'till I can't say that....
Maybe its just that we were supposed to be together today...but here I am....all alone.... I feel so lost....alone..without you.
See ya, Peng. Merry Christmas. Take care.
='(
Today, I left New York for New Jersey. Yeah, I am going further away from you. I feel kinda sad.
It is Christmas and I remembered that you said to me that for your present, you wanted me and only me. I also wanted you. In fact, I still want you. Sadly, I'm not getting the gift I truly desire. Haha.. tough luck, I supposed.
Anyway, Peng, how have you been? Are you fine? Hope are you warm and all. I don't know what else to say.
I want to say "I love you, Peng" but I don't know...today, my heart feels so heavy and painful....'till I can't say that....
Maybe its just that we were supposed to be together today...but here I am....all alone.... I feel so lost....alone..without you.
See ya, Peng. Merry Christmas. Take care.
='(
Saturday, December 25, 2010
New York (Pt. 6)
Dear Peng,
Today, I walked on the Brooklyn Brigde. The most amazing yet frightening thing happen.
I thought I saw you, Peng. I am not sure...This girl looked like you alot. She had shoulder long hair. The hair was generally black. The nose on this girl was very similar to your nose, Peng. And the glasses she wore was the same that you were wearing, Peng.
Peng...Baby..were you on the Brooklyn Bridge today, the 24th of December 2010? Were you, Peng? I still am really confuse. Was that you, Peng....or was it not.....
I did not get a good look also...Just a 1 second glance..and also at that moment, this girl was adjusting her scarf and her hat was blocking her eyes...
I don't know, Peng.. for that moment, I thought I saw you...I got scared..My whole body went cold...I was happy yet afraid..."Was that you, Peng?" I thought.
I still don't have an answer.
I love you, Peng.
Today is Christmas Day and also our month-versery. What a special day this would have been if I was still with you, right baby?
I am wearing the ring on my finger now. It makes me feel closer to you. Pathetic, right.... lol
I am thinking about you all the time. I miss you so much, Peng. Hope you are happy and cute, baby....now..and...forever. I love you, Lee Yin Peng. I really do. *kiss*
Today, I walked on the Brooklyn Brigde. The most amazing yet frightening thing happen.
I thought I saw you, Peng. I am not sure...This girl looked like you alot. She had shoulder long hair. The hair was generally black. The nose on this girl was very similar to your nose, Peng. And the glasses she wore was the same that you were wearing, Peng.
Peng...Baby..were you on the Brooklyn Bridge today, the 24th of December 2010? Were you, Peng? I still am really confuse. Was that you, Peng....or was it not.....
I did not get a good look also...Just a 1 second glance..and also at that moment, this girl was adjusting her scarf and her hat was blocking her eyes...
I don't know, Peng.. for that moment, I thought I saw you...I got scared..My whole body went cold...I was happy yet afraid..."Was that you, Peng?" I thought.
I still don't have an answer.
I love you, Peng.
Today is Christmas Day and also our month-versery. What a special day this would have been if I was still with you, right baby?
I am wearing the ring on my finger now. It makes me feel closer to you. Pathetic, right.... lol
I am thinking about you all the time. I miss you so much, Peng. Hope you are happy and cute, baby....now..and...forever. I love you, Lee Yin Peng. I really do. *kiss*
New York (Pt. 5)
Dear Peng,
Today, I went to the top of the Empire State Building. I was at the 86th floor. I saw the entire Manhattan. It was really spectacular. One more thing, the wind was really strong.....I was almost blown away.
Nonetheless, I was amazed.
Later, for dinner, I went to a Malaysian restaurant. The food was mediocre. I was sad....Oh well~
Haha....
Word of advice...Don't go to the Malaysian restaurant, Peng...haha....
Today, I went to the top of the Empire State Building. I was at the 86th floor. I saw the entire Manhattan. It was really spectacular. One more thing, the wind was really strong.....I was almost blown away.
Nonetheless, I was amazed.
Later, for dinner, I went to a Malaysian restaurant. The food was mediocre. I was sad....Oh well~
Haha....
Word of advice...Don't go to the Malaysian restaurant, Peng...haha....
Thursday, December 23, 2010
New York (Pt. 4)
Dear Peng,
Today, I went to Central Park. I got lost at first. I read the subway map wrongly and I mistakenly thought that there was a station near Central Park for the red line. Anyway, I found my way in the end. I also saw Columbus Circle.
Central Park was a really interesting place. It was clam, serene, quiet and pleasant. I wished you could have been with me. The, the experience would be spectacular. It would have been a dream-come-true for me it I could walk in Central Park with you, baby. While I was walking, how I wished I could kiss you in the middle of Central Park, where is cold and I would feel your warm lips touching mine. It would be sensational. Oh well~ its not going to come true...I know.
I also saw some people ice-skating. Then I bought some hot chocolate with whipped cream. Not that bad. You should try some when you at Central Park, by any chance.
Later, I went back to my cousin's apartment. And that's basically my day.
It was totally boring. It was so boring walking all alone. I was sad and emo the whole time.....and I couldn't do anything about it. My life is pretty sad, huh?
At least you're happy, Peng. Yeah.....I should be happy for you. But sometimes, I just break apart and I can't take it. I am so lost without you, Peng. Ever since that day when I suggested open relationship, I have not been able to think properly. My heart feels so heavy. I thought I can bottle it up. I thought I was strong. I wasn't. I am not sure how long I can take it.
As the days go by, I feel even more lost. I'm alone. I always has been. But you showered me so much love that I didn't need anybody else. I only needed you. I have never felt this way before. Not even to my mother.
Its all over now. I lost you forever. I tell myself every day "Its over...Its over...Its over". Its working a little.
I am watching so much pornography now just to drown my sorrow, but my sadness keeps coming back.
I should move one...but I just can't.....I don't know why.....I ....just...can't. I feel so helpless. Its just that I can't let you go......but I know...I can't have you.
Baby, I'm so lost.....please save me......if you can. ='(
Today, I went to Central Park. I got lost at first. I read the subway map wrongly and I mistakenly thought that there was a station near Central Park for the red line. Anyway, I found my way in the end. I also saw Columbus Circle.
Central Park was a really interesting place. It was clam, serene, quiet and pleasant. I wished you could have been with me. The, the experience would be spectacular. It would have been a dream-come-true for me it I could walk in Central Park with you, baby. While I was walking, how I wished I could kiss you in the middle of Central Park, where is cold and I would feel your warm lips touching mine. It would be sensational. Oh well~ its not going to come true...I know.
I also saw some people ice-skating. Then I bought some hot chocolate with whipped cream. Not that bad. You should try some when you at Central Park, by any chance.
Later, I went back to my cousin's apartment. And that's basically my day.
It was totally boring. It was so boring walking all alone. I was sad and emo the whole time.....and I couldn't do anything about it. My life is pretty sad, huh?
At least you're happy, Peng. Yeah.....I should be happy for you. But sometimes, I just break apart and I can't take it. I am so lost without you, Peng. Ever since that day when I suggested open relationship, I have not been able to think properly. My heart feels so heavy. I thought I can bottle it up. I thought I was strong. I wasn't. I am not sure how long I can take it.
As the days go by, I feel even more lost. I'm alone. I always has been. But you showered me so much love that I didn't need anybody else. I only needed you. I have never felt this way before. Not even to my mother.
Its all over now. I lost you forever. I tell myself every day "Its over...Its over...Its over". Its working a little.
I am watching so much pornography now just to drown my sorrow, but my sadness keeps coming back.
I should move one...but I just can't.....I don't know why.....I ....just...can't. I feel so helpless. Its just that I can't let you go......but I know...I can't have you.
Baby, I'm so lost.....please save me......if you can. ='(
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
New York (Pt. 3)
Dear Peng,
Today, I went to lunch at a Mexican Restaurant at the South Seaport. I ordered a Shrimp Quenchilladas, The food was really delicious. There was shrimp and cheese. Yum.Yum. Haha.
Later, I went to Astor Place to buy tickets to the Blue Man Group Show. The show was really fun and entertaining. We should go sometime, Peng. If you want la... ^_^
I also met one of my cousin's friend, Erica (If I am not mistaken). It was really awkward. I just sat silently and listened to their conversations. Woah... really awkward. When my cousin asked me if I wanted to have dinner together, I said no. I did not want it turn into another awkward situation.
So, I left. I bought dinner at some street vendor. And I got a free Coca-Cola because I was a Muslim. lol.
Anyway, I ate dinner and went back to my cousin's apartment.
That's basically my day.
How was your day, Peng? ^_^
Today, I went to lunch at a Mexican Restaurant at the South Seaport. I ordered a Shrimp Quenchilladas, The food was really delicious. There was shrimp and cheese. Yum.Yum. Haha.
Later, I went to Astor Place to buy tickets to the Blue Man Group Show. The show was really fun and entertaining. We should go sometime, Peng. If you want la... ^_^
I also met one of my cousin's friend, Erica (If I am not mistaken). It was really awkward. I just sat silently and listened to their conversations. Woah... really awkward. When my cousin asked me if I wanted to have dinner together, I said no. I did not want it turn into another awkward situation.
So, I left. I bought dinner at some street vendor. And I got a free Coca-Cola because I was a Muslim. lol.
Anyway, I ate dinner and went back to my cousin's apartment.
That's basically my day.
How was your day, Peng? ^_^
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
New York (Pt. 2)
Dear Peng,
Today is my second day in New York City. So, I was wrong, I did not go to Times Square yesterday. It looked like the shape of Times Square. Nonetheless, I went to the real Times Square today. Wow! Lights everywhere. Have you been to Times Square, Peng?
I also went to Wall's Street. Wall's Street is famous for the New York Stock Exchange. I also went to Brooklyn Pier. I saw the Hudson River and New Jersey from afar.
I also went to Astor Place where I just walked around randomly. I saw many Japanese Restaurants and all of them were so classy. I know you will like it a lot.
Oh ya, I went to Rockerfella Center. Do you remember that I said I wanted to go to 30 Rock? Well I did. Haha. The building was very tall.
Now, my legs are very tired. I mean, walking for 6 hours straight for 2 days is really killing my legs. Maybe you can carry me, baby? Haha.. No la, just kidding. It is I who must carry you, a beautiful, cute and sexy lady. It would be my honor.
^_^
Today is my second day in New York City. So, I was wrong, I did not go to Times Square yesterday. It looked like the shape of Times Square. Nonetheless, I went to the real Times Square today. Wow! Lights everywhere. Have you been to Times Square, Peng?
I also went to Wall's Street. Wall's Street is famous for the New York Stock Exchange. I also went to Brooklyn Pier. I saw the Hudson River and New Jersey from afar.
I also went to Astor Place where I just walked around randomly. I saw many Japanese Restaurants and all of them were so classy. I know you will like it a lot.
Oh ya, I went to Rockerfella Center. Do you remember that I said I wanted to go to 30 Rock? Well I did. Haha. The building was very tall.
Now, my legs are very tired. I mean, walking for 6 hours straight for 2 days is really killing my legs. Maybe you can carry me, baby? Haha.. No la, just kidding. It is I who must carry you, a beautiful, cute and sexy lady. It would be my honor.
^_^
Monday, December 20, 2010
New York (Pt. 1)
Dear Peng,
Today, I started my Day 1 in New York City. I woke up pretty late because my phone's time was still in LA's time zone. Aiya~
Anyway, I went for branch at this organic restaurant just near Chinatown (Canal St.) I ordered Scrambled Tofu. Not bad la, I think. After that, I went to Chinatown. All the fake stuff was there. But if compared to Malaysia's fake stuff in Petaling Street or, in JB, Holiday Plaza, the stuff is way cheaper. Nevertheless, it was a good experience.
Later, I just went walking around New York, seeing random places. I saw the Empire State Building, Grand Central Terminal, Times Square, Rocker fella Plaza (I think), an ice-skating ring (wished to ice-skate with you, baby), a few cathedral, a shop named the "Museum of Sex", African Burial Monument, Chrysler Building, McDonald that has Chinese tagline at Chinatown, the Church of Transfiguration and the subway. Haha
Baby, I also went to Walgreen at the Empire State Buildings. I bought a pair of white gloves. My fingers were so cold 'till they hurt. Seriously! The gloves did help a little.
So, that's it. My Day 1 in New York City. I wonder what I will do tomorrow....hmm...You have ideas, Peng?
Today, I started my Day 1 in New York City. I woke up pretty late because my phone's time was still in LA's time zone. Aiya~
Anyway, I went for branch at this organic restaurant just near Chinatown (Canal St.) I ordered Scrambled Tofu. Not bad la, I think. After that, I went to Chinatown. All the fake stuff was there. But if compared to Malaysia's fake stuff in Petaling Street or, in JB, Holiday Plaza, the stuff is way cheaper. Nevertheless, it was a good experience.
Later, I just went walking around New York, seeing random places. I saw the Empire State Building, Grand Central Terminal, Times Square, Rocker fella Plaza (I think), an ice-skating ring (wished to ice-skate with you, baby), a few cathedral, a shop named the "Museum of Sex", African Burial Monument, Chrysler Building, McDonald that has Chinese tagline at Chinatown, the Church of Transfiguration and the subway. Haha
Baby, I also went to Walgreen at the Empire State Buildings. I bought a pair of white gloves. My fingers were so cold 'till they hurt. Seriously! The gloves did help a little.
So, that's it. My Day 1 in New York City. I wonder what I will do tomorrow....hmm...You have ideas, Peng?
Sunday, December 19, 2010
New York
Dear Peng,
Today, I am in New York. I am really close to you now (physically) but I feel (and know) so far from you. Haha. So close, yet so far. I wonder if you remembered I will be in New York for Christmas. I'm pretty sure you've forgotten already.
I reached New York quite late, about 10pm. I did some walking about just now and saw a few places such as Ground Zero (the place where the World Trade Center was before), Seaport, The Hudson River. I found a PERFECT spot where we could be all alone. It was perfect. I think it was at Battery Park. I am not too sure though.
So, how have you been, Peng? Doing good? I hope so. Hope you are fine. Hope you are happy. Hope you are cute as ever.
Take care, Peng. I miss you alot. =)
Today, I am in New York. I am really close to you now (physically) but I feel (and know) so far from you. Haha. So close, yet so far. I wonder if you remembered I will be in New York for Christmas. I'm pretty sure you've forgotten already.
I reached New York quite late, about 10pm. I did some walking about just now and saw a few places such as Ground Zero (the place where the World Trade Center was before), Seaport, The Hudson River. I found a PERFECT spot where we could be all alone. It was perfect. I think it was at Battery Park. I am not too sure though.
So, how have you been, Peng? Doing good? I hope so. Hope you are fine. Hope you are happy. Hope you are cute as ever.
Take care, Peng. I miss you alot. =)
Friday, December 17, 2010
Mosque
Dear Peng,
Today, I went to the mosque. It was very confusing for me because the mosque is located very near to the beer factory. Ironic, huh?
Anyway, hope you are fine, baby! Take care. ^_^
Today, I went to the mosque. It was very confusing for me because the mosque is located very near to the beer factory. Ironic, huh?
Anyway, hope you are fine, baby! Take care. ^_^
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Another Girl.....
Dear Peng,
There is girl at USC that I met a few weeks ago. You know, she really reminds me of you. She is cute, Chinese, random and totally cute!
I really miss you, Peng! I really love you!
^_^
There is girl at USC that I met a few weeks ago. You know, she really reminds me of you. She is cute, Chinese, random and totally cute!
I really miss you, Peng! I really love you!
^_^
Monday, December 13, 2010
Annoying
Dear Peng,
I should have went to Case Western. I would be all alone there but at least there wouldn't be anybody annoying all the time. I really can't take it anymore, especially when its my finals now. Why must they be so bloody annoying?!
Peng, wish you could comfort me right now. I really am suffocating.
I should have went to Case Western. I would be all alone there but at least there wouldn't be anybody annoying all the time. I really can't take it anymore, especially when its my finals now. Why must they be so bloody annoying?!
Peng, wish you could comfort me right now. I really am suffocating.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Final Exam | Stress
Dear Peng,
Its my final exam tomorrow. I am really stressed up.
Do you remember last time I said that its hard to be stress when I am around you? Well, Peng, you are not around me anymore. I don't know how to manage my stress and my frustrations anymore. At the moment, I am just bottling up everything inside. I don't know how long I can take it............. but so far so good. haha.....
Baby, hope you are fine and happy.
I love you, Baby~~~ I love you so much! *kiss* * kiss* ^_^
Its my final exam tomorrow. I am really stressed up.
Do you remember last time I said that its hard to be stress when I am around you? Well, Peng, you are not around me anymore. I don't know how to manage my stress and my frustrations anymore. At the moment, I am just bottling up everything inside. I don't know how long I can take it............. but so far so good. haha.....
Baby, hope you are fine and happy.
I love you, Baby~~~ I love you so much! *kiss* * kiss* ^_^
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Birthday
Dear Peng,
How are you? Its been a long time since I've spoken to you in real life. Haha. Yeah, I know we will never speak again. I just have to get used to it.
Guess what? Its my birthday in 2 days time. I wonder if you still remember mine. Haha... no, right? Oh well, its ok, peng. I still love you.
I wonder if you might message me or post on my Facebook. Maybe you will. Maybe you won't. I'll find out anyway.
You know how I'm going to celebrate it? I going to sit alone on the bench, in front of the library at USC and remember how we used to talk so long in INTEC at the bench. Haha.
I'm sad that I can't celebrate my birthday with you. You know what birthday present I want?
I want you, Peng!
Take care, Peng. ^_^
How are you? Its been a long time since I've spoken to you in real life. Haha. Yeah, I know we will never speak again. I just have to get used to it.
Guess what? Its my birthday in 2 days time. I wonder if you still remember mine. Haha... no, right? Oh well, its ok, peng. I still love you.
I wonder if you might message me or post on my Facebook. Maybe you will. Maybe you won't. I'll find out anyway.
You know how I'm going to celebrate it? I going to sit alone on the bench, in front of the library at USC and remember how we used to talk so long in INTEC at the bench. Haha.
I'm sad that I can't celebrate my birthday with you. You know what birthday present I want?
I want you, Peng!
Take care, Peng. ^_^
