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Monday, January 31, 2011

Pain

Dear Peng

My left shoulder is really aching. Day by day, the pain/ache in my left shoulder is getting worse. I can't really carry heavy things with my left hand for long periods of time anymore. Hopefully, me left shoulder will get better.

Anyway, how are you, Peng? Hope you are cute, happy and safe, Peng!

Take care, Peng.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Ring

Dear Peng,

Ever since the start of the year, I've started to wear the ring around my neck. Initially, I wore the ring around my neck because I want to feel something. Before wearing the ring, I felt so empty. Really empty. All my emotions just died. The ring gave me something to feel. 

The ring also makes me close to you. The ring has a little part of you and wearing the ring, even though it is a tiny bit, makes me feel that I am beside you and you're beside me. 

Take care, Peng ^_^

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Wish

Dear Peng,

I know I can't really wish for anything anymore but today.....I wished that I could still hold your hand.

Bye-bye, Peng.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I am lonely...

Dear Peng,

Today, my heart feels very heavy. I just want to share my favorite song with you.




The lyrics really says what I'm feeling right now. (except for the part where the guy got dumped by the girl, which we both know that's not true for our case)

So, how have you been, Peng? Are you safe and cute and happy, Peng? I hope you are. I will continue to pray for you.

Oh ya, I am planning to go to Chicago during Spring break.

Take care, Peng. ^_^

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I don't feel so good

Dear Peng,

Today, I don't feel so good. Since last night, I feel very crappy. I couldn't study. I kept eating ice-cream until I got bored of it. I'm not sure what happening. I know I have no motivation to live anymore but I need to at least graduate with good grades and make my mother happy. Then, my job is done. Then, I can fully run away. Is that enough for motivation, Peng?

Bye-bye, Peng.....

*sob*

Monday, January 17, 2011

Whatever...

Dear Peng,

Today is a shitty day for me. Oh wait- I think it was yesterday.

My mother was saying that my trip to the East Coast must have been exciting and I must have had a lot of fun. I look indifferent. I just nodded my head. I knew inside that is the worst time I had in my entire life. For the entire journey, I was depressed. I remember when I was in New York, I was so tired of walking, I sat down on a bench. I was so depressed and sad that I was crying in my heart............Yeah, I had a lot of "fun". What a load of bullshit!

Later, my mother was pestering me about my grades. I said I did alright. However, she wanted to know the details. I succumbed and I showed my grades. "Oh.", she said. "You did pretty well.", she continued. She then congratulated. I just smiled meekly.I couldn't care less.

My mother also asked me if I had contacted you since we broke up. I said no. She heaved a sigh of relief. She said just wanted to be 'open'. My mother, then, ask me if I wanted to tell her anything else. I just replied no.

Never anymore will I tell anyone anything. Not even, my mother. What's the point?! What's the bloody point?!

Lately, I've been having bad dreams. Not nightmares, just bad dreams. And you're in them, Peng. You're in my dreams, fading away or scolding me or running towards another guy. Yeah, I know you're with another man but why I am haunted by this. My heart is hurting and has been painful ever since we broke up. Nothing I can do.

I was talking to V last night. I may have upset her. She ask me to give her a flying kiss. I just couldn't even though it was playing around. Maybe because  I still love you, Peng and kissing another girl is like cheating on you. Stupid, aren't I? We are both complete strangers now but I still have feelings for you.

My roommates are just bloody annoying. One is an just a whiny bitch, another is stubborn and childish. In the other room, one is just sooo childish. One is so freaking lame. One other made a girl cry.

But I don't hate them. Absolute dislike, yes but certainly not hate.That's because there is one person in the entire world that I hate : myself. I'm just a pathetic 2" kid.... living a pathetic 2" life.

I am not talking much anymore. I could not be bothered talking to anyone anymore. These days, I'm on the online forum the whole day, every day. It's the only place where I can feel peaceful.
Away from annoying roommates. Away from people. Away from life.

I am going insane, Peng. I don't have you anymore to save me. I only have myself. I'm not sure how long I can take this. Maybe bottling-up wasn't such a good idea. Darn... haha.

Well.....Take care, Peng. You must have be having a lot of genuine fun. Good for you. Maybe you could pray that I die faster to end my misery. Blah... don't mind what I said.. I'm just blabbering.....<.<

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Movie Night

Dear Peng,

Today, I watched Green Hornet and The Dilemma.

I first Green Hornet. The movie was really good. I went into the movie theater expecting, you know, a cheap superhero flick, Good vs. Bad, that kind of stuff. This movie, however, is a little different, with Jay Chao acting and all. This movie reminds me of Kick-Ass.

The second movie was The Dilemma. The movie was supposed to be a comedy but I couldn't understand most of the humor in the movie. So, bham, I felt kinda bored. What a waste of money.

Now, I am back in the room, all alone. You must be fast asleep now. Sweet dreams, Peng. ^_^

P.S: Guess what? Watching movies in cinema is just not same without you. It sucks.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Hey Peng

Dear Peng,

Its been awhile, huh? Well, school has started. I feel feverish everyday. I sprained my neck yesterday. I've got lots of homework already.

Yup, its the New Year and I predict a lot of New Failures.

How are you, Peng? Hope you doing fine.

Take care, Peng.

P.S: Waiting for my death...........painstakingly

Monday, January 10, 2011

Los Angeles (The End)

Dear Peng,

Today is the last day of my journey. I woke up at 5am at some breakfast and headed to Newark Liberty International Airport to catch my 7.30am plane.

I said goodbye in a jiffy and went to board the plane.

I reached Los Angeles at 1pm. I took the shuttle back and then I immediately cut my hair. ^_^

So here I am, back in Los Angeles. Classes will start very soon. Wish me luck, ok... Peng? Haha.. Oh well~

Here I go....Let's do this!

New Jersey (Pt. 4)

Dear Peng,

Today, I left Washington D.C. and headed back to New Jersey, back to my aunt's house. I left at 2pm and reached at 8pm. Haha. Long journey.

I ate some dinner and my aunt told me that she changed my flight time to the early morning. I had to sleep early then. I slept at 12am, still. Haha.

Washington D.C. (Pt. 2)

Dear Peng,

Today is my second day in Washington D.C. I woke up at 9am. Ate some breakfast and went out the door at 10.30am, heading towards the train station. I was going to the heart of the place, towards the Capitol Building.

My first destination was the Smithsonian Museums that was all over the place. There are many museums here. I only managed to go to 2 of them: Museum of Air and Space and Museum of Natural History. The museums were free and were very entertaining. Too bad I had limited time.

My cousin later met up with me around 1pm and brought me to the U.S. Capitol Building. She brought me to her workplace, the Senate's building. I went inside and it was really spooky. I mean, the hallways were long and wide. Imagine walking here at night. Oh man......

I met her colleagues and I said "Nice to meet you", awkwardly. One of my cousin's colleagues, Andrew Limbre, gave me quick tour of the place.I saw the Old Supreme Court and the very interesting interior decoration of the building.

Then, my cousin and I left the building and she dropped at the New Supreme Court Building. I went inside and took a look-see. I saw the infamous spiral staircase that has no external support whatsoever. Interesting.

Later, I walked all the way to the Lincoln Memorial, pass the Washington Monument. It was a really cold and depressing walk. Whatever la~

I then headed back to my cousin's house and ate dinner and slept.


p.s/ heya, Peng? ^_^
      yo, yp. lol

Washington D.C. (Pt. 1)

Dear Peng,

Today, woke up at around 9am. I was going to leave Philadelphia and head to Washington D.C. I ate some breakfast, drank some water and went out the door. I headed to Philadelphia's bus terminal. I was at the terminal at 10.30am and was surprised to see that the next bus was at 12pm. "OMG!", I thought. I quickly decided to head to the Chinatown bus service instead, thinking that there would an earlier bus. However, I was disappointed as the earliest bus was also at 12pm. Oh well~ I just bought the ticket and waited for 'bout an hour and a half.

Getting on the bus was kinda confusing but, in the end, at 12pm, I was on the bus and was on my way to the capital of USA.

I slept most of the way. I reached Washington D.C. at about 3pm. My cousin picked me up and we headed for lunch. I also saw my cousin's second daughter, Safya.

My cousin, then, drove us back to the her house, explaining on the way some places that I should see thenext day.

We reached home and I watched a little television. We ate some dinner, went to the airport to pick up a luggage and then went on a drive around the town so that I look around.

And that's basically my day. Take care, Peng! =)

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Philadelphia (Pt. 2)

Dear Peng,

Today, I ventured into the historical streets of Philadelphia. I got lost a few times but I think getting lost is a important part of traveling alone because traveling alone is boring and getting lost helps to make it a little exciting.

I started from the corner of 10th Street and Spruce. From there, I walked south (I think...) while the road's numbers decrease. My aim was the Liberty Bell and Independence Hall ( the place the Declaration of Independence was signed..... i think...lol). It was located on 6th Street. I walked and walked.It was really tiring. I got lost a little but I reached my destination.

I found the Liberty Bell Center. This bell is the symbol for freedom. Pretty interesting artifact. This bell also has a cracked. Sad.

I continued my walk through the city. I saw Penn's Landing. This place is actually a river with a port. There was an ice-skating ring too. Dayum. lol

So, I continued around there and I saw a monument similar to the Tugu Negara. This monument depicted how the Irish fled Ireland during the potato blight and came to America, landing at Philadelphia.

Later, I walked in the opposite direction (north) to 14th Street towards City Hall. Very interesting architecture, I must say. Later, I went to Reading's Terminal (No, its not a bus/train station.... haha) to eat my dinner.

Then, I headed back to my cousin's apartment and watched Top Gear to kill time. I'm so pitiful. Pfftt.

So, that's basically it. How are you, Peng? Hope you are fine.Yeah...I really hope you are safe....Well, I'll keep praying for you, Peng. Be safe and take care, Peng. ^_^

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Philadelphia (Pt. 1)

Dear Peng,

Today, I left Boston and headed towards Philadelphia. However, I only left at 6pm because I was told that there would be less traffic at night. So, the whole afternoon, I just hang around the house, killing time. I played a game called Dadu (team vs. team - each team has to move 9 pieces to the other end of the board) and also Pictionary.

Soon, it was time to leave. I said goodbye to everyone. Honestly, I was relieved to leave. I felt very awkward being in that house. I'm not sure. I guess I'm just lonely. Its so boring to be lonely.

Anyway, I reached Philadelphia at 12 am. Yeah, it was a 6 hour drive even though traffic was clear all the way. Haha.

Then, I slept. ^_^

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Boston (Pt. 4)

Dear Peng,

Today, I did not do much. I woke up at 11 am. I do not know why I woke up late even though I slept kinda early. I went into the city again and I didn't do much.

About 3 pm, we went my 2nd cousin's husband house. We had vegetarian dinner and I saw a Hindu ceremony.

Then, I played some Taboo which I was not very good at.

Then I came back to my Aunty's house.

Soon, I'll play some snooker. You remember, Peng, we played snooker together that one time. I had a really good time playing with you. You were really good.

Well, then, Peng, good night, sleep tight and sweet dreams.

Take care, Peng.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year

Dear Peng,

Happy New Year, Peng. I hope you will be a smart, caring, kind, cute, sexy, beautiful and naughty lady forever. Haha.

Take care, Peng.

Boston (Pt. 3)

Dear Peng,

Today, I went to downtown Boston. I went to Park square. I walked around for a bit. I saw some snowmans and some ice sculptures. I saw the ice skating ring. Damn, everywhere I go, I see an ice skating ring. Its like reminding me that I had never skated with you, Peng. Oh well~ Whatever la.

Then I walked around the place. I ended up at Chinatown. I walked around some more. Then I went back to the subway station. I took the subway to Kendell/MIT. I got off and walked to MIT. It reminded me of Stevens as there wasn't ant sort of gate surrounding the campus. However, MIT's campus was really serene. Walking through the campus, I could feel the aura of MIT; the aura of brilliance.

Then, I saw a very beautiful sunset. Haha.

I took the subway to Harvard next. This campus, I must say, is really distinct. Its surrounded by a gate. All the buildings are unique. Random people were walking throughout the campus, taking pictures. I also saw a couple kissing right in the middle.Swt~ But then I thought, I would have done same to you, Peng, if you were with me. So, I took a detour. I kept of walking and sat down for a bit. It was getting boring, 'cause I was all alone. I felt sad.

It was getting late, so I returned back to Park Square. It was night time now and the whole park was lit up brightly. I watched some figure skaters dancing and saw an energetic dance by a group called 'lil phunk. I saw a parade too.

Then I saw a very amazing fireworks show. It was very spectacular. It was then that I realized that I'll be forever alone. I look all around me and I was the only person all alone. It was a sad scene and I was sad. I am so pitiful. But then I did not feel awkward. I supposed this my destiny: forever alone and forever emo.

I am glad you are happy and are having a lot of fun. My prayer to God did come true.

Take care, Peng

From,
Quraish.
(Forever Alone - Forever Emo)

Boston (Pt. 2)

Dear Peng,

Today, I went for skiing. I woke up at 7 a.m. I ate and then I left for Nashoba valley. I was kinda nervous, to be honest. But, generally I didn't really feel anything at all.

When I reached, I rented the skis and the poles and headed for the "Green" part of the slopes. The "Green" part is also the easiest part of the whole mountain. Beginner, mah......

I fell and fell and fell. Haha. I kept falling. I got up and I would fall again. I'm a total failure, aren't I. I got a little better after a few hours. But I still kept falling. I realized I could use my poles to help me turn. It worked. But I was the "Green" part. I don't know if my method would work on the "Blue" part or the harder slopes.

It was about 4 pm when I headed back to my Aunty's house. I was sore all over.

Later, I saw your new profile picture, Peng. Blonde hair, huh? I was kinda shocked, to be honest. After a few moments, I realized that you aren't that cute anymore. I guess you did not want to be cute anymore. You look really wild now. Maybe you wanted the hardcore look. Well, you are still cute la.. but not as cute as before. Just my 6 cents opinion. Haha.

Take care, Peng.