Cheer Up and Move On...

Dear Peng,

So far, 3 people have said that to me. Never expected that phrase being said to me, though.

While I appreciate their concern, I feel that it is impossible for me to cheer up and move on. It is IMPOSSIBLE!

Why is it impossible? Well,

How can I cheer up when there is nothing that makes me happy anymore?
How can I cheer up when I broke up with the girl that I love so much?
How can I cheer up when I broke your heart, Peng?
How can I cheer up when I made you cry, Peng?
How can I cheer up when I made you angry, Peng?
How can I cheer up when you not mine anymore?
How can I cheer up when I am feeling so jealous?
How can I cheer up when I am feeling so lonely?
How can I cheer up when I have thoughts of suicide?
How can I cheer up when I don't know what is right and wrong?
How can I cheer up when all I want is you but I can't have it?
How can I cheer up?!

I remember last time I said to myself, even I am feeling very sad, I will forward towards a better tomorrow.
But everyday, when I wake, I say to myself, "Hate myself. Wonder what crappy things going to happen today".

Wow.. I am so pathetic. I should just die. Yeah, I wish that too.

Well, at least you're happy, Peng. At least God is answering my prayers. At least you aren't suffering anymore. Be happy and cute, Peng! ^_^

Bye-bye *wave* =)