I am so lonely, Peng. Ever since we broke up, I feel so empty inside. Have we become strangers, Peng? Can we still be friends? I am longing to hear your voice everyday.
I feel so jealous that you have a boyfriend now. haih.... I want to be your boyfriend! Oh well, I know I was the one who screwed up.
You know, I forgot to tell you one thing, Peng. You know... you told me that you realized you needed me.
I realized that I need you more than you need me. You made me happy, Peng. You gave me confidence by loving me. You make me believe in myself. Now that you're gone, I feel like killing myself. I feel life is just not worth living anymore. You became everything in my life. I didn't expect this would happen to me but Peng, you are my one and only.
Now you're gone and its definitely too late to win you back. You are in a new relationship and I don't want to disturb you already. I am missing you everyday. I am thinking about you everyday. Nothing makes me happy anymore.
I miss holding you hand. I miss you holding my arm. I envy all the couple that I see. I had you, Peng. You were mine and I f*cked it up.
You know, I realized another thing also. Before I came to INTEC, I told myself I would be a person that will never give up. I would be a person that will live a life of no regrets. I wouldn't make a girl cry/angry/sad.
Later, when we were together, I made a promise to myself that I will never let you go. I will never break up with you.
But now, I have went against everything I have said. I made you cry, angry and sad. I broke my promise of staying with you. I let you go. I gave up on us. I GAVE UP ON THE GIRL THAT I LOVE!!!! I REGRET LETTING YOU GO!
Was it the right decision, I wonder? I was scared, Peng. My mother said that she would disown me if I continued my relationship with you. I became confused. I didn't know what to think. I love you, Peng but I loved my mother as well. I couldn't just say no to her.
But I feel regret. I feel I've made the wrong decision.
I don't who I am anymore. I am just drifting day to day with no meaning in my life anymore. You had become my meaning of my life. Now that you are gone, my life is worthless.
I really love you , Peng. I wish I can say don't go. Come back to me. I really wish things could be different. I really want you back. But now, I know, you hate me already. You probably don't even want to talk to me ever again.
I love you, Peng. Everyday. I'm praying for your happiness, Peng. The happiness that I couldn't give you.
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I LOVE YOU, PENG!!!!!!!!!!!!
