Consoling.

Dear Peng,

Today I tried to console myself that maybe it was better that we ended. At least, I won't make you suffer anymore. At least, I won't make you cry or be sad anymore. At least, you could find someone else who could give you what you wanted.

Then I thought about the way you smiled and my chest hurt and I became sad. How I wish I can see you smile? How I wish I can make you smile?

I realized, a long time ago, that it would be AWESOME if we were still together. Why? Because our month-verssary and Christmas is the same day. Oh baby~ What a waste! I actually wanted to give you a blue rose jewelry set that I found online. I thought about how cute you will look if you wore them.

If were still together, we could on many adventures this winter. I was thinking we could go to Niagra Falls, like I said last time. Haih. I wanted also to go to New York City with you. To kiss you in the middle of the busy New York City streets would have been AMAZING!

Do you still think about me, Peng? or have you forgotten about my existence? Are you still angry at me, Peng? Do you hate me? T_T

Baby, I love you so much.

I love you, Peng! I really do!